I don't really have anything super significant to share with the masses that frequent my blog ( or rather the few), but I thought I would maybe sit down and see what little things I can throw out off the top of my head. We have free Internet and there is no one waiting for the computer, so I better take advantage. So we'll see where this leads me....or us.
Thailand is incredible beautiful. No where else have I seen the rawness of creation in the same way as I have here. India, Romania, South Africa, they all have incredible country sides, coasts, and scenery, but realistically they don't compare. This is next level.
Laos, while not the same, is equally as beautiful. If you ask me.
It's funny how it took me 7 months of traveling (even longer for those I haven't seen since last summer) to REALLY start missing people. I mean really. There are people that I miss at the core of my being right now, and in a way it feels good. It reminds me that there's a reason why I am going home, why I am coming to camp, and why I can't just disappear and wander the earth for the rest of my life. Despite the temptation.
I think a little too much sometimes, but I don't let it on (I think). I mean I try not to let it on. Recently I have been trying to not think so much. Just a little less. It's been good actually. At times I tire myself out, but it's the way I'm wired. Anyone who has had any communication with me recently can testify to that.
We have been traveling with Andrea Brown and four of her friends from teachers college in Australia. It's been very good for me to have people around, just so refreshing to be in a small community again. Plus they are all hilarious.
I'm getting oddly used to 16 hour bus rides. Three weeks ago, I never wanted to see another bus in my life. Since then I have been on several more, the last being two consecutive over nighters (16 hours) and it wasn't half bad.
Laos, may be the most chilled out place I have ever been. The locals are a lot like Thai people, but their accents are far less harsh and they are much quieter. Everyone is so friendly. Every restaurant is basically a bunch of beds that lay around a table. Brilliant.
I'm in a reading funk. I can't find anything that has gripped me for a little while. Any suggestions?
Can I tell you how excited I am to be back at camp, and not be on leadership? It may only be for a couple weeks, but it will be so great to be there and just be a part of the everyday routine. Nothing too serious, just doing what's asked of me, and then have some fun. It will be quality.
Alright well that's enough for now. Nothing very exciting here, but it's something. And somethings better than nothing....sometimes.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Paint me a Picture.
Sometimes I want to add pictures to my blog. Pictures of me, the places I have been, the beautiful people that I have come across. Sometimes I scour through the thousands of photos that Adam and myself have taken over the past 6 months, thinking of which ones I could add here. And every time I come to the same conclusion: There is no photo that I have come across that is adequate to accompany the words I write. And please believe me, this is not out of arrogance. In fact I also believe that the exact opposite is just as true. I have yet to be able to write words that justly portray what can be captured by a camera. Take the photo at the title of this blog for instance. At the current time it is a beautiful photo of a small Romanian friend of mine, Raul, and myself playing basketball, captured by Joni Allardyce (www.joniallardyce.com, Credit given where credit's due). I have tried to write words to bring out the personal meaning and joy of that photo. It hasn't worked. I mean I can't. The picture says everything that needs to be said.
I thought about this for quite sometime the other day (I had a 17 hour bus ride to help) and I began to list in my head the way that pictures and words compare and contrast:
I thought about this for quite sometime the other day (I had a 17 hour bus ride to help) and I began to list in my head the way that pictures and words compare and contrast:
Pictures can raise emotions
While words can steal the heart.
Pictures can show you everything
While words can give depth to everything.
Pictures can share a moment
While Words can bring two moments together.
Pictures can help us relive the past
While Words can change the future.
Pictures can tell a thousand words
While 10 words can paint a beautiful picture.
While words can steal the heart.
Pictures can show you everything
While words can give depth to everything.
Pictures can share a moment
While Words can bring two moments together.
Pictures can help us relive the past
While Words can change the future.
Pictures can tell a thousand words
While 10 words can paint a beautiful picture.
So, I realized that, despite my fairly new found passion for the art of photography, this isn't about pictures at all. This is about words. And it isn't confined to the ones I write. It includes them, along with the ones others write, the ones I speak, the ones others speak, the ones I see, read and hear. All words. The ones you use, AND the ones you don't
I have come to realise that the power in words is huge. No, it's humongous. They are both an amazing tool and a massive burden to everyone who uses them. And that's everyone.
It causes me to reflect on my own words of choice. What are the words that most commonly pop in my day to day conversation? How careful am I with my words? Do the negative words I use outweigh the positive ones?
As Adam and I have studied the book of Matthew over the past month, I have come to realise that Jesus really had a passion and a peculiarness for words. In Matt. 12:34, Jesus responds to the negative words of the Pharisees by first drooping the classic, "You brood of vipers!" line before saying, "How can you who are evil say anything good? For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks." He then reiterates this in chapter 15 by saying, "What goes into a mans mouth does not make him unclean, but what comes out of his mouth, that is what makes him unclean"..."But the things that come out of the mouth, come from the heart, and these make a man unclean."
Isn't it kind of funny how in a day and age where human rights (In Western society at least) have reached new heights, that we still use the language we use? While we waltz around pretending to love everyone equally and honestly, we drop phrases such as "This is gay" or "Don't be a Jew", amongst many others. Our excuse is that we don't mean anything negative against those people, it's just a phrase, something people say. But if you believe in Jesus, and believe in the words he spoke and is saying, then you most certainly must also believe that these words are much more than just simple words. They are the overflow of our hearts. They are much, much more than just meaningless phrases. They are who we are, in the deepest way imaginable.
So this goes much deeper than the outward lashes of negative language. It goes far beyond telling someone that they "suck" or using language that marginalizes and suppresses certain people. This goes for the words that no one ever even hear. The smallest of utterances. Under our breathes. In the most private of places. These are what determines what we are, inside out.
But this is only half the equation. Later on in Matthew (ch.25) Jesus tells the disciples the oft-quoted phrase, " I tell you the truth, whatever you did for the least of these brothers of mine you did for me. This implies that not only do the negative words we use reflect our hearts, they fall onto Jesus himself as well. Heavy. But here's the big thing. Look a little further down that passage and you'll find Jesus flip that sentence around. "I tell you the truth, whatever you did NOT do for one of the least of these, you did NOT do for me."
So It's not just about the words we use, It's about the ones we don't as well. How often do we not give credit or praise to others because we are too selfish? How often do we just walk by the homeless guy asking for money, pretending we can't hear what he is saying? How often are we scared to say the things that we know need to be said?
Words have the power to hurt, suppress, and even bring death, but they also have the ability to bring joy, love, and they can even breath life into people is used truthfully. Key word being truthful. It doesn't mean every word we ever speak will be fluff, it just means that everything will be spoken out of faith, love and unselfishness. I believe that we are a generation confused about words. We need to look deep into ourselves, our hearts and begin to use words that reflect the love, joy, and truth that we know. Words can bring darkness, but they can just as easily make that darkness tremble.
I know this sounds like the most accusatory and condemning blog entry I have written, but please believe me this is written first to the self. Myself. I am talking about me here, because I know there are things I need to change. However there is also the hope that I am not alone in this conviction, and that maybe my words will fall on the right ears. And if that happens, then these words won't be wasted.
I'd like to hear what you have to say about this. So if you agree, disagree, have a comment, hate me or like me, please, paint me a picture.
I have come to realise that the power in words is huge. No, it's humongous. They are both an amazing tool and a massive burden to everyone who uses them. And that's everyone.
It causes me to reflect on my own words of choice. What are the words that most commonly pop in my day to day conversation? How careful am I with my words? Do the negative words I use outweigh the positive ones?
As Adam and I have studied the book of Matthew over the past month, I have come to realise that Jesus really had a passion and a peculiarness for words. In Matt. 12:34, Jesus responds to the negative words of the Pharisees by first drooping the classic, "You brood of vipers!" line before saying, "How can you who are evil say anything good? For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks." He then reiterates this in chapter 15 by saying, "What goes into a mans mouth does not make him unclean, but what comes out of his mouth, that is what makes him unclean"..."But the things that come out of the mouth, come from the heart, and these make a man unclean."
Isn't it kind of funny how in a day and age where human rights (In Western society at least) have reached new heights, that we still use the language we use? While we waltz around pretending to love everyone equally and honestly, we drop phrases such as "This is gay" or "Don't be a Jew", amongst many others. Our excuse is that we don't mean anything negative against those people, it's just a phrase, something people say. But if you believe in Jesus, and believe in the words he spoke and is saying, then you most certainly must also believe that these words are much more than just simple words. They are the overflow of our hearts. They are much, much more than just meaningless phrases. They are who we are, in the deepest way imaginable.
So this goes much deeper than the outward lashes of negative language. It goes far beyond telling someone that they "suck" or using language that marginalizes and suppresses certain people. This goes for the words that no one ever even hear. The smallest of utterances. Under our breathes. In the most private of places. These are what determines what we are, inside out.
But this is only half the equation. Later on in Matthew (ch.25) Jesus tells the disciples the oft-quoted phrase, " I tell you the truth, whatever you did for the least of these brothers of mine you did for me. This implies that not only do the negative words we use reflect our hearts, they fall onto Jesus himself as well. Heavy. But here's the big thing. Look a little further down that passage and you'll find Jesus flip that sentence around. "I tell you the truth, whatever you did NOT do for one of the least of these, you did NOT do for me."
So It's not just about the words we use, It's about the ones we don't as well. How often do we not give credit or praise to others because we are too selfish? How often do we just walk by the homeless guy asking for money, pretending we can't hear what he is saying? How often are we scared to say the things that we know need to be said?
Words have the power to hurt, suppress, and even bring death, but they also have the ability to bring joy, love, and they can even breath life into people is used truthfully. Key word being truthful. It doesn't mean every word we ever speak will be fluff, it just means that everything will be spoken out of faith, love and unselfishness. I believe that we are a generation confused about words. We need to look deep into ourselves, our hearts and begin to use words that reflect the love, joy, and truth that we know. Words can bring darkness, but they can just as easily make that darkness tremble.
I know this sounds like the most accusatory and condemning blog entry I have written, but please believe me this is written first to the self. Myself. I am talking about me here, because I know there are things I need to change. However there is also the hope that I am not alone in this conviction, and that maybe my words will fall on the right ears. And if that happens, then these words won't be wasted.
I'd like to hear what you have to say about this. So if you agree, disagree, have a comment, hate me or like me, please, paint me a picture.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Monday, June 9, 2008
A White Flag
This is the resistance and a surrender,
This is my new covenant.
There has to be change, I cannot serve two kings.
I will put my hope in only one.
The one.
In the little things there is hope,
Then, in the little thing I must change.
I will speak new languages,
I will speak of great hope.
I will abandon myself to this and,
To Love my neighbor and enemy.
Let go of all else.
A white flag has been risen, and there will be no compromise.
This is my new covenant.
There has to be change, I cannot serve two kings.
I will put my hope in only one.
The one.
In the little things there is hope,
Then, in the little thing I must change.
I will speak new languages,
I will speak of great hope.
I will abandon myself to this and,
To Love my neighbor and enemy.
Let go of all else.
A white flag has been risen, and there will be no compromise.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
A nonsensical, most likely boring update from J-bay
To be honest I write this right now, not sure about what I want to say. South Africa has changed the vibe of this trip thus far. It's swung the momentum of a trip that has been, without a better word to define it, intense, to a much slower paced, less dramatic experience. I'm not sure it's a bad thing, it's just different. In certain ways I'd argue it was needed, but I'll talk about that later.
We are in a small coastal town called Jeffery's Bay. It has one traffic light, one main road with a few stores, and a lot of coast line. It's a surfing community, which can easily explain it's laid back attitude. And to be honest for the most part we have bought into it for the time that we are here. We surf, snorkel, go for runs, play basketball or soccer with the locals and people from the bible school that are here. Not much else. A fair amount of our time in the morning is spent reading, which has been a great change of pace. And in the evening we find ourselves cooking fairly elaborate meals, having guests when we can.
So it's been really slow, and we have to be creative to keep ourselves busy. But as I was saying, I do think that while not a whole lot is going on, this is still an integral part of our trip. The first reason, it cleared my head. The first few days here were great for me in that respect. In a way, I kind of just dropped everything important (even my lost bank card) and let myself resolve a little bit. However the past few days, largely with the aid of the book I am reading at the moment, "Jesus for President", and the studying of "Matthew" with Adam, my mind gone right back into constant movement. I find myself staring at the ceiling at night, racing through 100 thoughts at a time. I have started to realize the severity of the things I have seen the past 5 months. The pure absurdity of it all. I have started to realize what it means to me. And wonder what it should mean to me. I wonder where I will be in five years from now, and why I will be there. I've been thinking about how my time will be spent when this is all over. How my money will be spent. The reasons I will do things. The commitments I will make. The ones I hope to make. The people I will invest in. The ones that I might pass by. My motives. My hopes. Dreams. Strengths an weaknesses. Fears. And how much these are all worth.
Could I sound more like a philosopher? I believe that for many of these, I have found answers. They lay in some hidden corner of my faith. But they are there. Some of the answers, aren't the ones I want to hear or find. But some make more sense than I could have imagined.
I really don't expect anyone to still be reading this.
I will leave it at that, I have more than enough to say to many people, but it feels like an overwhelming task writing to whole right now. I'll try and come back with something clearer in the near future.
Blessings from beautiful J-bay, S.A.
We are in a small coastal town called Jeffery's Bay. It has one traffic light, one main road with a few stores, and a lot of coast line. It's a surfing community, which can easily explain it's laid back attitude. And to be honest for the most part we have bought into it for the time that we are here. We surf, snorkel, go for runs, play basketball or soccer with the locals and people from the bible school that are here. Not much else. A fair amount of our time in the morning is spent reading, which has been a great change of pace. And in the evening we find ourselves cooking fairly elaborate meals, having guests when we can.
So it's been really slow, and we have to be creative to keep ourselves busy. But as I was saying, I do think that while not a whole lot is going on, this is still an integral part of our trip. The first reason, it cleared my head. The first few days here were great for me in that respect. In a way, I kind of just dropped everything important (even my lost bank card) and let myself resolve a little bit. However the past few days, largely with the aid of the book I am reading at the moment, "Jesus for President", and the studying of "Matthew" with Adam, my mind gone right back into constant movement. I find myself staring at the ceiling at night, racing through 100 thoughts at a time. I have started to realize the severity of the things I have seen the past 5 months. The pure absurdity of it all. I have started to realize what it means to me. And wonder what it should mean to me. I wonder where I will be in five years from now, and why I will be there. I've been thinking about how my time will be spent when this is all over. How my money will be spent. The reasons I will do things. The commitments I will make. The ones I hope to make. The people I will invest in. The ones that I might pass by. My motives. My hopes. Dreams. Strengths an weaknesses. Fears. And how much these are all worth.
Could I sound more like a philosopher? I believe that for many of these, I have found answers. They lay in some hidden corner of my faith. But they are there. Some of the answers, aren't the ones I want to hear or find. But some make more sense than I could have imagined.
I really don't expect anyone to still be reading this.
I will leave it at that, I have more than enough to say to many people, but it feels like an overwhelming task writing to whole right now. I'll try and come back with something clearer in the near future.
Blessings from beautiful J-bay, S.A.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Where I am.
"I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy"
"I wish you were here
I wish you were here"
That about says it.
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy"
"I wish you were here
I wish you were here"
That about says it.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
The Collective Groan of God's Land.
It's crazy to think I spent the past week walking in the footsteps of Jesus. It's eerie even. The places they say we was born, the mount of Olives where he prayed the night before the crucifixion, to the proposed burial site where he rose again. It's absurd really. It's deep. Very deep.
Old Jerusalem is one of the most interesting places I have ever been (I'm sorry if I say that about everywhere I go). Just walking around the tiny city enclosed by ancient walls I was shocked to see the sudden changes from quarter to quarter. Each section (Muslim, Christian, Jewish, and Armenain) has a very distinct edge and flavor to itself. It's something hard to explain, you walk around one corner and you have changed from an entirely Jewish community to an entirely Muslin one. All within a tiny perimeter. At the same time there seems to be a harmony that connects them all, it's really hard to explain.
We arrived 5 or so days ago directly from Tel Aviv airport to Jerusalem, where we went to the hostel we had booked (Citadel Hostel). To our surprise, on arrival we were informed that the room we had booked was in fact not even a room. It was a mattress on top of the roof! A little surprised we weren't sure if we wanted to stay, but regardless went up to see the roof top. All I can say is that it was stunning. It overlooked the the entire old city. Breathtaking scenery. It was shared with about 20 other people, and before you knew it we had been accepted into their family. We all ate together, traveled around together, and slept under the stars and over the city lights together. It was beautiful. An experience of a lifetime.
The city has calls to prayer 4 times a day where the churched would get on their loudspeakers and lead everyone within the walls in prayer. Those moments where the type that sent shivers down my spine. It would start with the Rabbi or whoever would start it, and before long the entire city was moaning in prayer together. From our rooftop, it sounded as if the city stopped to collectively groan to God. Again one of those things that needs to be experienced.
The trip was filled with amazing conversation, under the stars at Citadel, floating in the Dead Sea, wandering the streets in Bethlaham, everyone wanted to talk. Never have I sat down in such a respectful conversation with such a diversity of people, everything from Jewish, christian, athiest, Muslim, and everything else between sitting, eating, and exploring each others world views. We even as a group celebrated shabbat (Jewish Sabbath), with dinner and a visit to the Wailing wall. Moments like these that make a world surrounded in darkness, war and tragedy seem Okay. It's the kind of thing that gives a person like me hope for the nations. All of them. There are hopes and dreams and ideas that we all share, we just haven't been on the same path.
I have so much to say about Israel, but no time. It's hard because I don't feel that I have even scrapped the surface of what I expereinced here. There is too much history. Too many current events. Too many sights to see. And Beauty all around.
Please ask me about it if you care to hear.
These past two days we have spent sitting on the beach in Tel Aviv, Which lies on the most beautiful mediterian sea. I have had a lot of time to sit back and ponder my time in Romania and Jerusalem here. The only major conclusion that I have come to is that I am filled with thanksgiving for the places and people I have met and will miss them all greatly. I have definatly left a part of myself in each of our stops so far, so I can only imagine that there are equally amazing things in store for South Africa in t-minus 2 days. Goodness me.
My prayers are with all of you. And I have a feeling I will be seeing many of you in the near future.
My love from Tel Aviv, Israel.
Old Jerusalem is one of the most interesting places I have ever been (I'm sorry if I say that about everywhere I go). Just walking around the tiny city enclosed by ancient walls I was shocked to see the sudden changes from quarter to quarter. Each section (Muslim, Christian, Jewish, and Armenain) has a very distinct edge and flavor to itself. It's something hard to explain, you walk around one corner and you have changed from an entirely Jewish community to an entirely Muslin one. All within a tiny perimeter. At the same time there seems to be a harmony that connects them all, it's really hard to explain.
We arrived 5 or so days ago directly from Tel Aviv airport to Jerusalem, where we went to the hostel we had booked (Citadel Hostel). To our surprise, on arrival we were informed that the room we had booked was in fact not even a room. It was a mattress on top of the roof! A little surprised we weren't sure if we wanted to stay, but regardless went up to see the roof top. All I can say is that it was stunning. It overlooked the the entire old city. Breathtaking scenery. It was shared with about 20 other people, and before you knew it we had been accepted into their family. We all ate together, traveled around together, and slept under the stars and over the city lights together. It was beautiful. An experience of a lifetime.
The city has calls to prayer 4 times a day where the churched would get on their loudspeakers and lead everyone within the walls in prayer. Those moments where the type that sent shivers down my spine. It would start with the Rabbi or whoever would start it, and before long the entire city was moaning in prayer together. From our rooftop, it sounded as if the city stopped to collectively groan to God. Again one of those things that needs to be experienced.
The trip was filled with amazing conversation, under the stars at Citadel, floating in the Dead Sea, wandering the streets in Bethlaham, everyone wanted to talk. Never have I sat down in such a respectful conversation with such a diversity of people, everything from Jewish, christian, athiest, Muslim, and everything else between sitting, eating, and exploring each others world views. We even as a group celebrated shabbat (Jewish Sabbath), with dinner and a visit to the Wailing wall. Moments like these that make a world surrounded in darkness, war and tragedy seem Okay. It's the kind of thing that gives a person like me hope for the nations. All of them. There are hopes and dreams and ideas that we all share, we just haven't been on the same path.
I have so much to say about Israel, but no time. It's hard because I don't feel that I have even scrapped the surface of what I expereinced here. There is too much history. Too many current events. Too many sights to see. And Beauty all around.
Please ask me about it if you care to hear.
These past two days we have spent sitting on the beach in Tel Aviv, Which lies on the most beautiful mediterian sea. I have had a lot of time to sit back and ponder my time in Romania and Jerusalem here. The only major conclusion that I have come to is that I am filled with thanksgiving for the places and people I have met and will miss them all greatly. I have definatly left a part of myself in each of our stops so far, so I can only imagine that there are equally amazing things in store for South Africa in t-minus 2 days. Goodness me.
My prayers are with all of you. And I have a feeling I will be seeing many of you in the near future.
My love from Tel Aviv, Israel.
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